The Further Development of One Jewish Folk

Is it my basic desires that hold me back? If so, I must work on determining which is more fulfilling to me. Basically the shift would be eating and women.

As for work... should I take a full-time job with the idea of putting off Israel? I need that year of learning. I had my opportunity. Did I wave goodbye to it? I definitely did not take full advantage of the luxury of being able to take a year off. In the grand scheme of things, the jobs will always be there. My money, however, is rapidly depleting. I cannot continue to spend, Israel or no Israel.

I really waste a lot of energy on thoughts.